conflicting minds

lot's of things happened in a year huh? I had a lapse in judgement and now it's following me everywhere. Thinking about it again, I'm not so sure if it's a lapse of judgement. I'm trying to assure myself that it's something that I need to do in order to continue.

Apparently, every decision has a consequence and I'm dealing with the consequence now. The problem is, I'm not sure if I deserve the punishment I'm experiencing now because a part of me thinks I deserve this but a bigger part of me is telling me not to feel bad because I just did what I need to do, nothing else.

I guess I should be patient for a month and we shall see how things turn out.